GOD GOD GOD spritual gurudwara jesus or allah

HARI OM WAH GURU JE KHALSA WAH GURU JE FATEH HEY MAN US SALAAM WALIKUM IF I START TO DEBATE YES OR NO RIGHT OR WRONG IT WILL BE ENDLESS CONVERSATION TO DEBATE AND SHARE IS UNIVERSE IS RUNNING AS DEFAULT OR THERE IS SOME COSMIC RULE IN ONE LIFE AND BIRTH AND DEATH ITS DIFFICULT TO UNDERSTAND AND SHARE IT WHAT I EXACTLY CONCERN WITH MY HEADING TODAY EARLY MORNING OF 350 AM HAD SOME SHOCKING DAY WHERE WE SHOULD EXPERINACE IT ALL EITHER IN FRIENDSHIP OR IN RELATIONSHIP OR IN BUSINESS NOW 3 STAGES SUCCESSIVE OR FAILURE OR NORMAL IN ALL STAGES ABOVE HEADING WORKS IN HUMAN LIFE BUT WHAT IF THERE IS NO COSMIC LAW AND WE DOT KNOW WHATS LIFE AFTER DEATH RECTIFICATION STORIES WHAT WE HEAR HAPPEN OR NOT LET ME START MYSELF AND COME TO THE GIST HAD TO TO ARRANGE SOME MONEY WHICH I DID SLEEPING IN BED TILL 12 AFTER NOON GOT A CALL FROM BROKER CONCERNING BUSINESS SO HAD TO TALK WITH MY RESPECTED ELDER JEJU SIR RAHUL JE MY FRIEND COME YOUNGER JEJU BOTH SISTER MY SISTER ELDER SON CHANI WITH MY FRIEND VINOD AND NIRANJAN DOT KNOW BUT GOT EMOTIONAL MY ONLY WEAKNESS IN LIFE SO HAD SOME TEARS IN MY EYES HAD CONVERSATION WITH MY DAUGHTER AND TOOK SON ACHINT FOR SHOPPING HE GOT HAPPY AND SAID THANKS FOR WHICH ME FEEL ASHAMED OF MYSELF REASON ME GETTING THANKS FOR MY DUTY ,MY ELDER SISTER WHO IS MORE THAN SISTER AND MOTHER CN SAY GODDESS HAVE NOT BLIND BUT THERE IS NO WORD IN DICTIONARY TO USE HER LOYALTY TOWARDS HER GURU HATS OFF TO HER FOR EVERY PROBLEMS SOLUTION IN THE LIFE SHE FINDS OUT IN HER FAITH IN HER GURU AND SO KEEP ALL AND EVERYONE ENCOURAGING ABOUT IT THE FIRST TIME ON PHONE I SAID TO HER DIDI NO WHY I SAID NO SIMPLE MY TELEPHONIC CONVERSATION REGARDING MY OWN WORK WITH HIM I KNOW I HAVE LOST MY FAITH IN FAMILY REASON I AM FAILURE AND THEY ARE RIGHT ALSO BEGGARS CANT BE CHOOSERS NOW WHAT I MEAN WHATS THE SPIRITUALITY CONCERN WITH THIS YES IT DOES IT WAS A TRANSACTION BETWEEN INSIDER AND OUTSIDER AND BOTH ARE IN SPIRITUALITY I HAVE NOT LOST MY FAITH IN GURU BUT TO SEE ALL THINGS OFF BUT STILL REMEMBER PRABHU JEES WORDS ANJA TA MAA AAYA MEANS I AM STILL THERE FOR MY WILL THAT MY BOTH JEJU AND FAMILY RELATIONSHIP BEFORE AND FAMILY OCCASIONS OCCUR HATS OFF TO THIS MIRACLE REALLY MIRACLE AND TOUCH WOOD I WAS PRESENT TO THIS I AM SO HAPPY ITS BEYOND EXPRESSIBLE NOW FROM SPIRITUALITY TO GURUDWARA VERY CLOSE TO OUR PLACE WHERE I STAY LAST 7-8 MONTHS DOT KNOW WHY I AM ALSO NOT REGULAR THERE ME HAVE UNLIMITED FAITH IN GURU NANAK SAHIB AND VEY SOON WANT TO BE AT AMRITSAR BEFORE I DIE ONCE TO THANKS HIM FOR GIVEN ME HUMAN BIRTH AND NOT TO FINISH IT WITHOUT STRUGGLE AND FACING TOUGH TIME WHICH ARE ACCORDING TO OUR KARMA'S NOTHING WENT IN LIFE ACCORDING TO WISH WHY NOT MISTAKE BUT BLUNDER AFTER BLUNDER HAPPEN DOT KNOW GOT A WONDERFUL CHANCE TO COME OUT LAST YEAR WENT OF NO AVAIL FEELING LOST AND OUT DOT KNOW WHAT WILL BE FUTURE NOW ON WARDS AFRAID NERVOUS AND AGAIN IS STATE OF DEPRESSION I DID MISTAKE OR MISTAKE JUST HAPPENED DOT THE ANSWER BEING SO CALLED VERY INTELLIGENT FROM ALL FEEL ASHAMED OF EVERYTHING HAS OCCURRED FROM MY END I KNOW EVEN MY SON MY FAMILY GOING TO ABUSE ME SOME DAY WHEN THEY FEEL TOUGH TIME TODAY 23RD SEP 2012 TIME MID NT 2 15 NIGHT HAVING VERY WORST DAY FEELING DOWN AND OUT ONLY WANT TO GATHER COURAGE OK GOD YOUR WORLD YOUR PUNISHMENT CANT ASK FOR FORGIVENESS BECAUSE OF MY KARMA'S THIS WAS NOT MY TOPIC OF WRITING BUT THE DAY I STARTED IT WAS DIFFERENT AND TODAY ITS ANOTHER DAY ANOTHER MOOD FEELING TIRED FATIGUE AND LOST MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY FINANCIALLY I AM BROKE BECAUSE OF MY ACTIONS AND STEP IN MY BUSINESS LETS END IT NOW ITS ENDLESS LET SEE WHAT GODS PACKAGE FOR THIS STUPID PERSON IS STORED AND WHATS FUTURE ON WARDS GOD GOD GOD FORGIVE ME FOR EVERYTHING I DID WRONG COMING TO YOUR UNIVERSE WITH PEOPLE WITH FRIENDS AND RELATIVES WITH BUSINESS ASSOCIATES AND IN FAMILY FORGIVE ME LORD FORGIVE ME I WANT TO DIE AS A DEBT FREE PERSON AND DOT WANT REBIRTH OF CYCLE TO BORN AND DO IT RATHER THAN IN THIS BIRTH ONLY SHOW ME A RAY OF LIGHT N PATH TO COME OUT OF MY OBSTACLES AND TO BE ON RIGHT PATH AS U SHOW ME AND GUIDE ME LORD. YOURS YOURS YOURS ONLY