controlling mind heart and feeling

Really some time feel when n how maturity of life comes and achieved age wise what me mean life is turning in diff rent arena where its more responsibility towards family kids social circle and off course huge time for business and life rest problems ,problems is something diff rent one get solved another comes ,responsibility,everyday in spite getting and being into meditation where we learn so much from our LORD,s teaching regarding everything how to be a perfect man in all aspect of life in spite of hearing it so much very little me put it in our living and daily routine willing to follow from heart n mind but feeling getting failed in doing and bringing it in action ,knowing life is uncertain how long time is there left to do all still get lazy and huge work is on pending neither working towards will nor targeting something to achieve its a stage fully haphazard.IT not something impossible situation situation can be change alter but mind set is very very difficult to control having so much experience in life so much mistake knowing what we doing is not right and what me also thinking is not appreciable just heart is ruling mind for some time feeling me just making fool to myself directionless and aimless .what me feel being so much involve in my complicated problem me rather than solving my one exciting problem me adding another problem .What me should do now and how to come out from this situation me have to have some very tough decision and sacrifice its easy to climb a tree but difficult to get down so me have to stop myself what me doing its not good enough is enough so its now today or never if me say slowly it wot happen so me have to call it a day its tough but not impossible no intentions hurting to anyone but me feel me not in position in my life for whats happening around and no point playing with fire at the end its only hand will get burn.So no point looking for an ointment latter and crying for healing its better to put water on fire i mean controlling mind heart and my feeling .If me going to try GOD is always there to help me.SO it better to be late than never.